I'm having troubles deciding, more like figuring out where to start. So much has happened since last fall, we'll see how this goes. I'll start where I spend most of my time thinking; my most favorite girl, Kenzee. Last fall left us with sporadic half an hour visits, every other week or so. A few visits through September and an evening towards the end of October, that ended up holding us over until summer was spent at the school play where Kenzee did such an amazing job looking beautiful, dancing and singing like she does best. While watching her, I noticed throughout the play, how much I truly loved this girl. She started each scene in a different spot and every time the lights came up, I spotted her almost immediately. Call me weird or creepy, I call it being in love. We were able to spend some time together afterwards which was the extent of our hanging out sessions other than two give or take 20 minute happen stance run ins over the next 8 months. Whoa!
Over the past 10 months, I have scrimped and saved to prepare myself for the summer where my dreams are starting to come true. In my mind, my logical thinking mind, ducks need to be in rows if you will, when big life changing activities take place. Last summer, not only was Kenzee not done with school, I wasn't in a mindset with the capabilities to make things work. There were specifically 3 different areas in which I wanted to improve in my life to make it so that I could provide in the ways that I feel like I need to for another individual. First, Mentally. I needed to get out of the school mode and start focusing even more on work and doing things that will lead me to more of a financial Provider. Which leads me to the second aspect of feeling ready to settle down with someone, financially. As of last Spring after school finished, I was about $4,500 in debt. Between credit cards, vacations and back payments of phone and insurance bills. It all added up to quite a number. Over the past 10 months, I have been able to eliminate that debt and actually have around $2,000 in savings. I have also been able to purchase some toys that I felt like I needed (wanted) before Kenzee and I continued our journey together. I have a new iPod, iPad, iMac and MacBook Pro. I have no idea how all of this happened, other than a lot of hard work and savings techniques that snuck up on me. Along with these 2 parts of D Murr's philosophy of preparing to settle down, comes the most important, Spiritually. I sure had and still do have a long way to go before I'll be to a point where I can be satisfied with my spirituality. However, I feel as if this past year or so has truly prepared me for what needs to happen with me and my future in helping me become the person that I need to be. I felt like I needed to be worthy; of such an incredible girl, the Lord's magnificent Priesthood, the love of my Heavenly Father and most importantly for my mind's sake, myself. I have seen an incredible amount of improvement in this area of my life that I find myself smiling more often and having an increased desire to serve others, take part in personal prayer, attend church meetings and the partake of the blessings that await in the sacred temple. I feel like the combination of these three things have helped me feel more prepared for being able to provide for and love another precious individual. I feel like I've done a pretty good job at this lately, and in turn, find myself the absolute happiest I've ever been. It feels great!
Other activities that took place over the course of the past few months include weekend ski trips to Snowbird, about 10 of them over the course of the winter. 2 trips to the fancy Deer Valley and an opening sesh at the Mountain Resort in Park City. Winter was definitely a success to keep my mind focused on not going insane without my girl in my life. The Saturday Morning Specialists ended up killing about 15 days with 5 or so of which were done in about knee deep freshness. Sick. The spring time brought a quick trip down to Phoenix with Cole and the Wadsworth private jet. Straight up sillyness for certain. Golfing, hanging out and driving a HUGE truck home topped off the weekends activities. The following weekend was spent in sunny St. George/Las Vegas with Rhetnal Scan and Rosscoe Dash. After about $1,000 of winnings from Mega Bucks for Doc and an incredible show from the Blue Man Group at the MGM and an $8 Red Bull and a crazy expensive game of golf, the weekends activities were a success for the Ninja Wolfgistics Team. I'm sure that the activities that I have left out were fun and exciting, I just can't remember them, thus the reasoning behind me hoping to become more into a routine in posting.
Today being the 21st of June, and the longest day of the year btw, I have been hanging out with my most favorite girl in the whole world for about a week and a half now. the 11th of June brought an amazing reunion that was long overdue. a relaxing romantic walk and talk sesh along the sidewalks and fountain area of the Gateway mall downtown started off the evenings activities. The evening continued on to a hilarious play, Dirty Rotten Scoundrels, at the Hale Center Theater later that night. We were able to talk face to face about real life situations, expressing our love to each other and spending some good quality time together for the first time in nearly 8 months! The overwhelming amount of happiness and joy that filled my heart that night, I can't describe but I'm sure that other people who are or have been in love know what I'm referring to.
Kenzee brings so many fun emotions out in both of us. When we are together, we spend most of the time laughing or tickling and just bugging each other (in a good way). It really is so much fun and so cute and probably pretty annoying if anyone else were to be around. There are so many things that I absolutely love about this girl. She makes me feel like the person that I want to be, the person that I want to become. She knows and tells me how awesome I am. She is never quick to judge and always knows when to hold her tongue. She exercises an extreme amount of patience with me and my shortcomings which I am ever so grateful for. She helps me be the happiest I've ever been. Plain and simple. Happiest. EVER! She always cares about me and shows me that she cares in a new way just about every day. Most of all, the thing that I love most about her is the ways that she finds to show me that she loves me. Every single day, she somehow digs into her bag of whatever she has and finds a new way to take my breath away, a new way to make my heart melt and I absolutely love it! She truly is the girl of my dreams and I am so thankful for her in my life. I am also very thankful to a Heavenly Father who is mindful of me and who knows what I am going through and most of all, knows, what is best for me. I'm grateful for the chance that I have to be here on the Earth to go through the things that I need to to help me become a better person, a better disciple of Christ, A better brother, uncle, son and one day father. I don't know what I would do without the strength that my Heavenly Father gives me each and every hour of the day. He knows me, He loves me and I can feel it and find that one of the most valuable lessons I've learned in my life. I've been waiting for this feeling for such a LONG time and after all I've been through with relationships; the trials and tribulations, the good times and the bad, the hard and the easy; I can recognize that Heavenly Father knows best and is blessing me more than I ever thought I would ever deserve. Kenzee is, by far the most incredible woman I have ever met. She is caring in a sincere way that makes me feel like I am loved even through a text message. She is mindful of others and knows what is best for herself and never settles for anything less than the best, which is very attractive. She always works extremely hard and knows that hard work brings things to life and makes things happen. She is motivated to not only do good for herself, but to do good for others. She is determined to succeed in every aspect of her life and I adore that about her. She is an amazing motherly figure to many kids around her including nieces and nephews and neighbors. A motherly instinct is very difficult to acquire, even being a mother, Kenzee already has it, which is so so important to me. Kenzee knows how to show other people and especially me how to be a good example of how to be. Kenzee is, honestly and truthfully, the most amazing girl in the world in my book and I feel so blessed to be a part of her life and to be so in love with her. I can't even begin to explain what she means to me. She means the world and so much more to me and I love and adore her more than she'll probably ever know. Needless to say I'm a little bit crazy-in-love, head-over-heels excited about this girl and what the future holds for us. The feelings that we both have for each other are so much fun and after contemplating, praying, thinking and meditating for what seems like hours upon hours, I know that this girl is the girl who I want to marry. She truly helps me to be the happiest I have ever been. I want to spend my life and the eternities with her, the woman of my dreams, the girl in my life, my lover girl, homie, and best friend. McKenzee Dee Anderson. I love you baby!
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